Monster: A Creature having a Strange or Frightening Appearance.

Monster is what me and a few of my friends call
unattractive women. I'm not sure where the term originated but it soon worked it's way into our vocabulary. Use of the word can go somthing like this: "Damn, that girl is a monster!" the comment is usually followed by a growling noise. I know it's mean but I get a kick out of it.

Monsters tend to be alot more forward than there attractive counterparts. If you smile at a monster they will attack you. When dealing with a monster one must be very careful.

I'm not sure what it is about me but I tend to attract alot of monsters. I think it's partly because, as I stated earlier, monsters are more forward.

I know looks aren't everything but I can't be with someone if I'm not physically attracted to them. So cupid...no monsters please.

Friday Night: I'd Rather Chill at Home 2night

Friday Night: The most anticipated night of the week. Most Friday nights I would be at some club, bar, or my fraternity house but not tonight. I'd rather chill at home.

Just screen all my calls tonight because I'm stayin home. Sorry Folks...

Unavailable: Not Available, Accessible, or at Hand

For some unknown reason I lost the desire to blog. Then suddenly the urge reawakened itself. I credit it to things that have been going on in my life lately.

Over the summer I took a couple of summer classes...one went very well. The other class...well lets just say I passed but it was below expectations.

My unattainable perfection has truly become unattainable for some unknown reason to me. I guess I can just chalk it up to a summer fling. Summer flings can never be taken seriously anyway but she will always personify perfection to me.

I recently moved into a new apartment and it took awhile to get internet access and after all the waiting...its down again.

Registering for classes...

So I have been unavailable....

All my problems pale in comparison to events that take place everyday in the world. I don't even view them as problems but events that mold me.

I am no longer unavailable....

Why Not !?

"if you're falling off a cliff, you might as well try to fly"

I saw this quote on a blog. It was actually my first time hearing this quote. This can be applied to many of the events that happen in my life.

The Education gods Hate Me.....

Yeah so....I just took an exam for my operating systems class (class in my major) and I possibly failed. I really wouldn't be so upset but I spent the majority of yesterday studying for the damn exam. Since its a summer session class we only have two exams a midterm and final. So if I butchered this exam I'm screwed in the class.

Now I have to get ready to go to work...where I will have to help ignorant people. I'm not in the mood....

The Education gods really hate me.......

Girls I love you.. I love all y'all

"I love girls, girls, girls, girls, girls I do adore
Yo put your number on this paper cuz I would love to date ya
Holla at ya when I come off tour"
- jay z

I don't discriminate....

Passion: Strong sexual desire; lust

I adore the act of kissing. I view kissing very highly in my life so I choose not to give those kisses away. There must be some kind of attraction present beyond the physical. Often on my nights of heavy drinking my female companions feel they may steal a kiss. I of course must deny them. This is my personal choice I don't see anything wrong with people who don't view kissing as highly as me.

Kissing is an act of passion to me. It is so sexual and intimate. I'm the type of person that can't just kiss somebody without having some kind of attachment. I have to guard my heart.

I need somebody to kiss again.....

Restless: Not able to rest, relax, or be still

Due to reasons I can't explain I went to bed rather early tonight. I think it had to due with the fact I didn't get my afternoon nap. Nonetheless I am up at 5:40 am hoping that by writing I will go back to bed and get a few more hours of sleep before I have to go to class.

While I was lying in bed all by myself I was thinking how much I would love to have someone there lying next to me. I want the smell of having a beautiful woman in bed with me. I want to wake up in the middle of the night and just watch her sleep.

I would love for you to be that woman lying next to me. I would love to steal a kiss as you slept next to me. Continue to sleep...I will protect you throughout the night. If I only knew how you truly felt...maybe one day I will watch you sleep.

Why is She Alone?

This is a question I posed to a friend of mine. We were discussing another love interest of mine besides My Unattainable Perfection. She is constantly approached by guys. What makes someone like this alone? I suppose the same reason why My Unattainable Perfection is not in a relationship. Times like these I wish I had a guy like Hitch to help me out.

Distracted....

I find my self being distracted daily by thoughts of the woman I will refer to as My Unattainable Perfection(see The Search for Perfection...Found and Lost) I am a two weeks behind in my studies because all I do in class is think of her. When I'm at work I am unproductive because I dwell on thoughts of her. Something has to give....how is it that I am so taken by her in such a short time?

Relationships...To Be or Not to Be

What is it that drives me to want to be in another relationship? I just ended a three year relationship several months ago so why be so anxious? My friends tell me that I need alone time and I need to enjoy being single for a while. I agree with them but I still have this nagging feeling. I think I'm an attention whore and crave the undivided attention of the opposite sex. I just miss the feeling of being able to lay on the couch with somebody I genuiely care about and not say a thing and be content. Thats not something I can get from just going out with random women I find attractive.

I also love the idea of being in love and the process it takes to fall in love. I want to just have someone who I can put on a pedstal and treat like a queen. Someone who I can send flowers to for no reason. Someone I can surprise while they are at work and take them out for lunch. I miss being able to do things like that.

Well I'm not a big advocate of the "Everything happens for a reason." saying but I think maybe I really need alone time as hard as that may be for me. I need it so I can see what I truly want in a significant other.



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The Search for Perfection...Found and Lost

I think I might have a problem or it might not be a problem at all. I'm ready to find the woman I am going to spend the rest of my life with. Yet I'm not willing to settle. I want her to be absolutely perfect in my eyes. I have a list in my head of how I want her to be. Honestly why should anyone have to settle for anything other than what they view as perfection? I recently broke up with a woman I had been dating for three years because she was not what I was looking for...though she is the prototype. Often people tell me that this perfection that I wish to find in a woman is none existant. They tell me that everyone will possess some type of fault or imperfection... I of course disagree.

Found:
I recently reacquainted myself with a woman I used to attend high school with...we were a couple of years apart so we never really talked in high school. We've recently been out on a couple of dates and I have become drawn to her. So far she possesses every trait that I look for in a woman. She is classy but not to the point to where she doesn't know how to have a good time. She is confident in herself...that alone is an highly attractive trait. She knows she is gorgeous but she is not arrogant. She has high goals and ambitions. She knows what she wants out of life. I could write in great lengths on the desirable traits she possesses. I am completely captivated by this woman. The only thing left would be to see how she treats her signifcant other.

Lost:
We've only been able to enjoy each others company for a few weeks. She is leaving the country with her family in a couple of weeks. When she gets back to the states she will be going to school in another city that is three hours away. Our short time together doesn't allow us to build some kind of feasibly working long distance relationship. I don't even know how she feels about me. We've never talked about any type of long term relationship....because we've only been on two dates. I don't know what to do. I believe I have found perfection but this perfection may be unattainable.