The Search for Perfection...Found and Lost

I think I might have a problem or it might not be a problem at all. I'm ready to find the woman I am going to spend the rest of my life with. Yet I'm not willing to settle. I want her to be absolutely perfect in my eyes. I have a list in my head of how I want her to be. Honestly why should anyone have to settle for anything other than what they view as perfection? I recently broke up with a woman I had been dating for three years because she was not what I was looking for...though she is the prototype. Often people tell me that this perfection that I wish to find in a woman is none existant. They tell me that everyone will possess some type of fault or imperfection... I of course disagree.

Found:
I recently reacquainted myself with a woman I used to attend high school with...we were a couple of years apart so we never really talked in high school. We've recently been out on a couple of dates and I have become drawn to her. So far she possesses every trait that I look for in a woman. She is classy but not to the point to where she doesn't know how to have a good time. She is confident in herself...that alone is an highly attractive trait. She knows she is gorgeous but she is not arrogant. She has high goals and ambitions. She knows what she wants out of life. I could write in great lengths on the desirable traits she possesses. I am completely captivated by this woman. The only thing left would be to see how she treats her signifcant other.

Lost:
We've only been able to enjoy each others company for a few weeks. She is leaving the country with her family in a couple of weeks. When she gets back to the states she will be going to school in another city that is three hours away. Our short time together doesn't allow us to build some kind of feasibly working long distance relationship. I don't even know how she feels about me. We've never talked about any type of long term relationship....because we've only been on two dates. I don't know what to do. I believe I have found perfection but this perfection may be unattainable.

iTunes:Celebrity Playlist pt. 2

This is the continuation of my "celebrity playlist"/soundtrack of my LIFE......

"My Stupid Mouth" (Track 16) This is the perfect song that explains a first date in my life. No matter how well laid the plans are...I always end up messing up because of my stupid mouth.

"Love Song for No One" (Track 17) "I'm tired of being alone"....thats one of the lyrics to the song. I love this song. It about me searching for my true love. Not sure what I'm looking for but I'll know her when I see her. I could have passed her on a sidewalk.

"Prototype" (Track 18) This song has a new meaning to me. I recently broke up with my g/f of 3 years. She wasn't exactly what I was looking for but she was definately the prototype.

"Sunday Morning" (Track 19) Love that I wish would come back to me. Maybe even one that got away.

"How to Rob" (Track 20) This is one of 50 cent most creative songs. I'm not a big 50 fan but this is an old song, before he got famous, from a mixtape. "The only excuse for being broke is being in jail." He just does a whole rap about robbing different celebs.

"Oye Como Va" (Track 21) I have no idea what this song is about but its one of my favorite Santana songs. It was my theme song on Margarita Day at my Fraternity house.

"99 Problems" (Track 22) Well this song really isn't as prevalent in my life anymore because I want a girl in my life.
But until then I still have 99 problems and a B*tch aign't one.

"Spaceship" (Track 23) Wow...this song speaks to me so much. Not only is Kanye one of my favorite lyricist but the part when he talks about working at The Gap...I love it. I work at The Gap and I can relate to some of the things he says. I wish I could buy a spaceship and fly away.

"Dreams" (Track 24) I'm not sure why I put this in my playlist but it all about dreams.

"Get In My Car" (Track 25) "I got no pick up lines." as part of the chorus goes. This is just one of those jams that just make you wanna choke a hoe....haha I'm just jokin. This is a good ridin song...when your gettin ready to do some dirt.

"Feelin On Yo Booty" (Track 26) What can I say the most beautiful part of a woman to me is her booty. I love booties and R Kelly just takes it to the next level with this song.

"All at Sea" (Track 27) I can just listen to this song on repeat. Its a great song for me to get away from everything. Whenever I want to be alone I just turn this song on and go away.

"Take it From Here" (Track 28) Great...Great song....it explains exactly how I want to treat my future mate.

"If I ruled The World" (Track 29) Makes me think what I would do if I ruled the world. Nas is a great lyricist combined with the talk of L boogie.....GREAT !!

"Naked" (Track 30) This is the newest addition to my playlist. I just can't get enough of this song. I said recently that my first child is going to be conceived to this song.

iTunes:Celebrity Playlist

Well I suppose this is my first official entry. This entry was inspired by iTunes. On iTunes you can view music playlist that were created by celebrities. I decided to create my own playlist which I also consider to be the soundtrack of my LIFE. Well this is and always will be a work in progress. It's listed below in no particular order:

01. Dance With Me - 112
02. So Fresh, So Clean - Outkast
03. Dirt Off Your Shoulder - Jay-Z
04. Motivation - T.I.
05. Car Fulla White Boys - Haystak
06. Where the Part At - Jagged Edge Feat. JD,Da Brat,ROC,Nelly,Lil Bow Wow
07. What's So Different - Ginuwine
08. Love - Musiq Soulchild
09. Selfish - Slum Village
10. Used To Love U - John Legend
11. Alright - John Legend
12. Im A Be Alright - Thicke
13. Girls, Girls, Girls Remix - Kanye West And Jay-Z
14. Peaches & Cream - 112
15. Why Georgia - John Mayer
16. My Stupid Mouth - John Mayer
17. Love Song for No One - John Mayer
18. Prototype - Outkast
19. Sunday Morning - Maroon 5
20. How To Rob - Madd Rapper and 50 Cent
21. Oye Como Va - Santana
22. 99 Problems - Jay-Z
23. Spaceship - Kanye West Feat. GLC & Consequence
24. Dreams - The Game
25. Get In My Car - 50 Cent
26. Feelin' On Yo Booty - R Kelly
27. All at Sea - Jamie Cullum
28. Take It From Here - Justin Timberlake
29. If I Ruled The World - Nas feat. Lauren Hill
30. Naked - Marques Houston

"Dance With Me" (Track 1): This is one of those songs that explains how I feel when I see a girl across the room and I just wanna dance with her.

"So Fresh, So Clean"(Track 2): When your getting ready to go out for the night this is the perfect jam to get you in the mood. This was my personal theme music for my senior prom.

"Dirt Off Your Shoulder" (Track 3): Whenever you have a problem or your surrounded by people sippin on that hatorade just remeber just get that dirt off your shoulder. When anybody says somting negative to me I just brush my shoulder off.

"Motivation" (Track 4):Like the title says Motivation. This is just one of those junts that gets me motivated to do whatever.

"Car Fulla White Boys" (Track 5):This is one of the first white rappers that I enjoyed listening too. This song holds alot of memories for me. When me and my homeboys used to ride around singing this but saying "car fulla brown boys!"

"Where the Party At" (Track 6): Great club song and I'm always lookin for the next party.

"Whats So Different" (Track 7): Ginuwine knows what he's talking about in this song. Don't try to get with a girl with a man because what's to say she won't do the same to you.

"Love" (Track 8): This is just a beautiful song. Its about Love...what more can I really say.

"Selfish" (Track 9): Wow this song explains me perfectly when I'm in a relationship. I'm so selfish...I want my girl all to myself and I don't want to share her with anyone else. I guess thats my downfall.

"Used to Love"(Track 10): When you love someone you tend to do anything for that person but when the love starts to fade you tend to not care anymore. Sometimes you can't afford to be with that person finacially. I feel this song.

"Alright" (Track 11): One of my favorite lines in this song is "I know I drink a little bit much". This song contradicts my Ginuwine song but its a total different mind set.

"Im A Be Alright" (Track 12): Fantastic song to get you in a good mood. Whenever I'm havin a bad day this song can always brighten my day. "I still got my music"

"Girls, Girls, Girls Remix" (Track 13): I love girls...this song explains my feelings exactly....I perfer a sister but I love all shapes and color of women. I can find beauty in anyone.

" Peaches & Cream" (Track 14): Nothing gets you in the mood like peaches and cream.....

"Why Georgia" (Track 15): This songs basically explains how I feel when I get stuck in the same ole groove. Like John says in the song "Four more exits to my apartment but I'm tempted to keep my car in drive and leave it all behind."


Well to be continued.......

Hello World

Well this is my first attempt at the exciting world of online blogging. I'll probably get tired of it in a few weeks. Well in parting words for now:

"How is it that you can disrespect a man’s ethnicity? When you know we’ve influenced every facet of white America, from our music, to our style of dress, not to mention your basic imitation of our sense of cool, walk, talk, dress, mannerisms. We enrich your very existence all the while contributing to the gross national product through our achievements in corporate America. It’s these conceits that comfort me when I’m faced with the ignorant, cowardly, bitter, and bigoted. Who have no talent, no guts, people like you. Who desecrate things they don’t understand. When the truth is you should say “thank you man!” and go on about your way. But apparently your incapable of doing that
so…. "
-Cedric the Entertainer (Be Cool)