Why Not !?

"if you're falling off a cliff, you might as well try to fly"

I saw this quote on a blog. It was actually my first time hearing this quote. This can be applied to many of the events that happen in my life.

The Education gods Hate Me.....

Yeah so....I just took an exam for my operating systems class (class in my major) and I possibly failed. I really wouldn't be so upset but I spent the majority of yesterday studying for the damn exam. Since its a summer session class we only have two exams a midterm and final. So if I butchered this exam I'm screwed in the class.

Now I have to get ready to go to work...where I will have to help ignorant people. I'm not in the mood....

The Education gods really hate me.......

Girls I love you.. I love all y'all

"I love girls, girls, girls, girls, girls I do adore
Yo put your number on this paper cuz I would love to date ya
Holla at ya when I come off tour"
- jay z

I don't discriminate....

Passion: Strong sexual desire; lust

I adore the act of kissing. I view kissing very highly in my life so I choose not to give those kisses away. There must be some kind of attraction present beyond the physical. Often on my nights of heavy drinking my female companions feel they may steal a kiss. I of course must deny them. This is my personal choice I don't see anything wrong with people who don't view kissing as highly as me.

Kissing is an act of passion to me. It is so sexual and intimate. I'm the type of person that can't just kiss somebody without having some kind of attachment. I have to guard my heart.

I need somebody to kiss again.....

Restless: Not able to rest, relax, or be still

Due to reasons I can't explain I went to bed rather early tonight. I think it had to due with the fact I didn't get my afternoon nap. Nonetheless I am up at 5:40 am hoping that by writing I will go back to bed and get a few more hours of sleep before I have to go to class.

While I was lying in bed all by myself I was thinking how much I would love to have someone there lying next to me. I want the smell of having a beautiful woman in bed with me. I want to wake up in the middle of the night and just watch her sleep.

I would love for you to be that woman lying next to me. I would love to steal a kiss as you slept next to me. Continue to sleep...I will protect you throughout the night. If I only knew how you truly felt...maybe one day I will watch you sleep.

Why is She Alone?

This is a question I posed to a friend of mine. We were discussing another love interest of mine besides My Unattainable Perfection. She is constantly approached by guys. What makes someone like this alone? I suppose the same reason why My Unattainable Perfection is not in a relationship. Times like these I wish I had a guy like Hitch to help me out.

Distracted....

I find my self being distracted daily by thoughts of the woman I will refer to as My Unattainable Perfection(see The Search for Perfection...Found and Lost) I am a two weeks behind in my studies because all I do in class is think of her. When I'm at work I am unproductive because I dwell on thoughts of her. Something has to give....how is it that I am so taken by her in such a short time?

Relationships...To Be or Not to Be

What is it that drives me to want to be in another relationship? I just ended a three year relationship several months ago so why be so anxious? My friends tell me that I need alone time and I need to enjoy being single for a while. I agree with them but I still have this nagging feeling. I think I'm an attention whore and crave the undivided attention of the opposite sex. I just miss the feeling of being able to lay on the couch with somebody I genuiely care about and not say a thing and be content. Thats not something I can get from just going out with random women I find attractive.

I also love the idea of being in love and the process it takes to fall in love. I want to just have someone who I can put on a pedstal and treat like a queen. Someone who I can send flowers to for no reason. Someone I can surprise while they are at work and take them out for lunch. I miss being able to do things like that.

Well I'm not a big advocate of the "Everything happens for a reason." saying but I think maybe I really need alone time as hard as that may be for me. I need it so I can see what I truly want in a significant other.



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